[Verse 1]
New year
Same desk
You walk in with that thrift-store vest
Amanda laughing by your side
I fake a smile
I choke inside
Group chat
Whirr of phones
I’m staring at your AirPods
Alone
Math notes turning into your name
Right margin full of hearts and flames
[Pre-Chorus]
You say “Hey
Jaz
Can I sit here?”
My voice cracks like the first day last year
You don’t notice
You just start to speak
About him
Again
And it cuts too deep
[Chorus]
I’ve got a crush in the back of the classroom
Love feels loud in a quiet room
You talk about him like he hung the moon
But he won’t stay
He won’t stay
I’m stuck in 2023 with this heartache
Watching you fall for another heartbreak
If I said your name out loud
Would it all break?
Or would you stay
Would you stay
Amanda
Would you stay
[Verse 2]
Bus ride
Rain on glass
You’re scrolling through your camera roll fast
Show me
His new post
I laugh it off but it hurts the most
Late night
Blue screen
Typing “I like you” then I delete
Playlists full of songs you’d love
But I just send you memes instead of us
[Pre-Chorus]
You say “Jaz
Why won’t he text back?”
I joke
“He’s scared of what you have”
You call me “perfect
Always know what to say”
If only you knew
I mean it in a different way
[Chorus]
I’ve got a crush in the back of the classroom
Love feels loud in a quiet room
You talk about him like he hung the moon
But he won’t stay
He won’t stay
I’m stuck in 2023 with this heartache
Watching you fall for another heartbreak
If I said your name out loud
Would it all break?
Or would you stay
Would you stay
Amanda
Would you stay
[Bridge]
Cap and gown in the closet now
End-of-year countdown ticking down
Do I tell you in the parking lot
Or carry this into what we’re not
You hug me
Say “Don’t you disappear”
Your hair in my hoodie
I swallow my fear
Half-smile
Half-prayer as I pull away
“Maybe there’s something
I should say…”
[Chorus]
I’ve got a crush in the back of the classroom
Love feels loud in a quiet room
You talk about him like he hung the moon
But he won’t stay
He won’t stay
I’m stuck in 2023 with this heartache
Last chance
Last bell
One heartbeat late
If I say your name out loud
Will my hands shake?
Or will you stay
Will you stay
Amanda… will you stay