[Verse 1]
Hands in my pockets
Laughing too loud at your jokes
You say "you're my best friend"
And I play along with the role
You fix my collar
Call me "bud"
Nudge my side
You never see how my heart
Pulls back and hides
[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause you talk about him
Like the moon talks back
You say his name
And the whole room cracks
I fold my smile
Like a paper toy
I am your comfort
Not your boy
[Chorus]
I'm not that boy
The one you hold when the bar lights fade
I'm not that boy
The name you breathe when you're afraid
I'm the safe place where you fall
While you chase another joy
And I stand in the doorway
Breaking
Knowing I'm not that boy
[Verse 2]
We share our secrets
You say "I don't know what he means"
You cry on my t‑shirt
Salt and cologne
In the seams
You call at midnight
Just to say you're not okay
I trace your breathing
Till it floats away
[Pre-Chorus]
And you talk about him
Like a perfect song
Every wrong thing he does
You forgive it
Stay strong
I bite my tongue
Till there's blood in the void
I am your always
Not your boy
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
In some kinder world
You'd look up and see
The way my hands shake
When you lean into me
I'd be the first thought
Not the spare choice
You'd hear my truth
In my cracking voice
But here in this story
I'm background noise
[Chorus]