Sickly

(Verse 1 – half-spoken, joint drag between every line)

Sittin’ on the porch steps, phone at 3%

scrollin’ through your Facebook like a fiend tryna score again

You at some party smilin’, I’m out here countin’ change

for another fuckin bowl to burn away your name

Overdraft alerts hittin’ like punches to the ribs

I spent my last twenty on beer so I don’t give a shit

You don’t even know I’m dyin’ out here slow

but I still check if you’re typin’ every time that bubble show

(Hook – lazy, cracked-voice singing)

You my favorite person, my favorite hurt

favorite reason I’m broke and still puttin’ you first

I look like hell but I’d still crawl through the dirt

just to sit outside your window in this stained-up shirt

Favorite person… favorite person…

I’m too broke to leave you, too broke to live

(Verse 2 – same slow drip, voice almost gone)

Got court next week, warrant for some dumb shit I did

when you stopped answerin’ and I lost my fuckin’ lid

Truck on bricks, no tags, grass growin’ through the hood

but I still drive past your house like that’s doin’ any good

Mama says “get over it,” like it’s that damn easy

I just nod, take a sip, and let the bugs bite me

I ain’t eaten in two days but I’ll starve for your attention

turn my pain into a song you’ll never even mention

(Hook – quieter this time, almost whispering)

You my favorite person, my favorite curse

favorite reason my life keeps gettin’ worse

I’d pawn my soul for one text that says you miss me

but I’m broke in every way, so I just sit here sickly

Favorite person… favorite person…

you cost me everything and I still pay the price

If I die out here

just throw me in the creek behind the trailer

tell ‘em it was you

so at least somebody says your name at my funeral

Favorite person, favorite person

favorite face I see when the pills kick in

Favorite person, favorite person

I’ll love you till the lights get shut off again