Life’s hardest moment

I don’t know what to feel but I wanna find myself pull myself together get my life together wanna leave this place wanna go find my high wanna be with my love but it’s hard to feel anything when there’s a past to remember remembering my favorite memories with people hate having to be here my life gets harder everyday just wanna put it up and leave it behind and start again why do we have to live a life that would eventually end it just seems like god doesn’t want us to live forever together. can we be together again and be just live our lives forever make our memories together and leave the past behind