Pay Me Back in Pain

[Verse 1]
Talkin to myself
In this cracked-up mirror
Every word a bruise
Every breath comes nearer
To the edge of it
Yeah, the drop I crave
Pull the pin again
Just to feel betrayed
I’m a ghost in my own skin
Chewed up by the medicine
Every pill, every hit, every consequence
Still hear your voice in the silent hiss
[Pre-Chorus]
I claw at the walls just to feel
Tear at the scabs till they bleed for real
You stitched me up with barbed wire veins
Then you walked away
[Chorus]
Lost in the pain, I won’t make it
All is lost, you can take it
Every promise you broke, every word that you stained
Pay me back in pain, pay me back in pain
I’m screaming your name, can you taste it?
All this rage that you created
Cut my heart like you carved your name
Pay me back in pain, pay me back in pain (yeah)
[Verse 2]
You said, “Trust me”
I said, “Okay”
You said, “Love me”
Then you walked away
Now my chest is a locked-up cage
Full of teeth and a feeding rage
I smash my fists through the thoughts in my head
Punch through the past till my knuckles turn red
If hurt is a debt, then I’m overdrawn
Every scar just proves you’re gone
[Pre-Chorus]
I claw at the walls just to feel
Tear at the scabs till they bleed for real
You stitched me up with barbed wire veins
Then you walked away
[Chorus]
Lost in the pain, I won’t make it
All is lost, you can take it
Every promise you broke, every word that you stained
Pay me back in pain, pay me back in pain
I’m screaming your name, can you taste it?
All this rage that you created
Cut my heart like you carved your name
Pay me back in pain, pay me back in pain
[Bridge]
Talkin to myself in the dark
Like, “Who did this? Who tore me apart?”
Your shadow still sleeps on my side of the bed
You live in my lungs, in the back of my head
You cashed me out for a moment of thrill
Now I’m stuck with the tabs and the bitter pills
If hurt is a language, I’m fluent in yours
Every syllable burns
[Instrumental Break]
[Emo guitar solo, bending, crying notes over a stripped-down drum groove]
[Chorus]
Lost in the pain, I won’t make it
All is lost, you can take it
Every promise you broke, every word that you stained
Pay me back in pain, pay me back in pain
I’m screaming your name, can you taste it? (screaming your name)
All this rage that you created
Cut my heart like you carved your name
Pay me back in pain, pay me back in pain
[Outro]
Talkin to myself
Till my voice just fades
If this is what love costs
Then drown me in the flames

rap, Jagged nu-metal / rap rock hybrid with male vocals: detuned, chugging guitars and a sharp picked lead, halftime stomping drums, and a big, filtered build into the hook. Verses spit tight, rhythmic bars with occasional doubled growls; chorus explodes into anguished melodic shouting and stacked harmonies. Middle section opens for an emo-tinged guitar solo, then crashes back into a final, screamed refrain., nu metal, emo, hard rock, rap rock, alternative metal