Verse
My chest forgets how it’s supposed to work
Breath comes in pieces, leaves me first
There’s a siren screaming under my skin
But the room is calm, so I pretend
Time bends wrong, seconds sting
My hands don’t feel like they’re part of me
I stare at the floor like it might explain
Why my body panics but nothing’s changed
Chorus
There’s something crawling up my spine
Telling me I’m not safe, not this time
I fold myself smaller, quieter, thin
Like fear will pass if I don’t let it in
I don’t cry, I don’t shout
I just fade where no one’s looking now
Verse
My name feels heavy in other mouths
Like if they say it, I’ll break somehow
I write texts I never send
Erase myself before they can
Every knock inside my chest
Sounds like a warning I should’ve guessed
I’m not dying, but I swear
My body thinks it’s almost there
Chorus
There’s a pressure I can’t outrun
Like the world’s too loud and I’m the only one
I hold my breath, I lock the door
I don’t trust calm anymore
I don’t reach out, I don’t explain
I’ve learned how to carry this pain
Bridge
Fear talks soft, like it knows my voice
Says staying alone is the safer choice
Says “don’t let them see you shake”
“Don’t give them something they can take”
So I sit with my back to the wall
Counting cracks, waiting for the fall
If I don’t move, if I don’t feel
Maybe this won’t be real
Outro
I survive in the spaces between
Heartbeats, breaths, almost screams
Still here, ( still here
but barely inside
Learning how to exist while I hide