I hide

Verse

My chest forgets how it’s supposed to work

Breath comes in pieces, leaves me first

There’s a siren screaming under my skin

But the room is calm, so I pretend

Time bends wrong, seconds sting

My hands don’t feel like they’re part of me

I stare at the floor like it might explain

Why my body panics but nothing’s changed

Chorus

There’s something crawling up my spine

Telling me I’m not safe, not this time

I fold myself smaller, quieter, thin

Like fear will pass if I don’t let it in

I don’t cry, I don’t shout

I just fade where no one’s looking now

Verse

My name feels heavy in other mouths

Like if they say it, I’ll break somehow

I write texts I never send

Erase myself before they can

Every knock inside my chest

Sounds like a warning I should’ve guessed

I’m not dying, but I swear

My body thinks it’s almost there

Chorus

There’s a pressure I can’t outrun

Like the world’s too loud and I’m the only one

I hold my breath, I lock the door

I don’t trust calm anymore

I don’t reach out, I don’t explain

I’ve learned how to carry this pain

Bridge

Fear talks soft, like it knows my voice

Says staying alone is the safer choice

Says “don’t let them see you shake”

“Don’t give them something they can take”

So I sit with my back to the wall

Counting cracks, waiting for the fall

If I don’t move, if I don’t feel

Maybe this won’t be real

Outro

I survive in the spaces between

Heartbeats, breaths, almost screams

Still here, ( still here

but barely inside

Learning how to exist while I hide