Bitter Regression

Changed in a moment, I will never be the same.

I feel like a monster, tell me should I be afraid?

I hear all the voices, shouting loud in my brain.

Is this just a phase, cause it is driving me insane?

A loneliness I can't take,

but I keep pushing people away,

though I'm begging them to stay,

these feelings I can't shake,

it's like I am afraid,

they'll know this smile's fake,

if they look close at my face,

cause I can't erase all the mistakes.

Changed in a moment, I will never be the same.

I feel like a monster, tell me should I be afraid?

I hear all the voices, shouting loud in my brain.

Is this just a phase, cause it is driving me insane?

I'm rapping like a man possessed,

My heart is set to beat out of my chest,

I thank God that I am blessed,

But I feel like I am being let by the rest.

I know those pills aren't working,

I feel like I'm trapped in a three ring circus,

I flip these tables just to see them turnin,

Build these bridges just to watch them burnin.

Changed in a moment, I will never be the same.

I feel like a monster, tell me should I be afraid?

I hear all the voices, shouting loud in my brain.

Is this just a phase, cause it is driving me insane?

I cant fulfill my greater purpose,

I'm feeling like I'm worthless,

I'm shouting all these curses,

I know my family don't deserve this.

Am I still a decent person,

Despite all the people that I'm hurting,

I draw the final curtain,

While these feelings only worsen.

Changed in a moment, I will never be the same.

I feel like a monster, tell me should I be afraid?

I hear all the voices, shouting loud in my brain.

Is this just a phase, cause it is driving me insane?