Scared out of my mind

[rap]
I stayed by your side through both pleasure and pain
I thought I was your queen, I believed you were my man
I always took your side, I looked proud holding your hand
When we walked into a room, they all gasped, we looked so good
Mmmm mhhh ah ah ooooo
Out in public, we looked solid. Always a united front
Later on, when we got home, you would explain what I did wrong

[Chorus, song]
I didn't know it right away
It took me time to figure out
Now I really know for sure
When you said I lacked respect 
You really meant it as a threat
Yeah, eh eh eh
You were only satisfied when I was scared out of my mind

[rap]
I tried to reason with you, tried to make you see 
We're on the same team, but we can't always agree
To have a difference of opinion is not a lack of respect
But in your narrow world, your way was the only way
Mmmm mhhh ah ah ooooo
I confess, I was weak. I gave up, I gave in
That's the first mistake I made

[Chorus, song]
I didn't know it right away
It took me time to figure out
Now I really know for sure
When you said I lacked respect 
You really meant it as a threat
Yeah, eh eh eh
You were only satisfied when I was scared out of my mind

[rap]
You wore me down, you messed with my head
A roller-coaster of emotions, up and down, high and low 
A masterful manipulator. Gaslighting was your thing 
You would cheat, you would lie. I would blame myself and cry
Mmmm mhhh ah ah ooooo
I couldn't understand why you messed with me so, but you wouldn't let me go

[Chorus, song]
I didn't know it right away
It took me time to figure out
Now I really know for sure
When you said I lacked respect 
You really meant it as a threat
Yeah, eh eh eh
You were only satisfied when I was scared out of my mind

[Pre outro]
I still don't know what plan you had
I was numb, but I woke up 
I woke up in time to walk away 
[Outro]
I didn't know it right away
It took me time to figure out
Now I really know for sure
When you said I lacked respect 
You really meant it as a threat
Yeah, eh eh eh
You were only satisfied when I was scared out of my mind

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