(Verse 1)
We were kids in the city, seventeen and clean, You were my high, the only future I'd ever seen. We were thick as thieves, the kind of bond you can't fake, But you had a secret hunger, a promise you had to break. I saw the shift when you first touched the white girl's kiss, A quick little bump that sent you straight into bliss. I was holding your hand, but you were looking right past me, Already plotting your escape on that chemical tapestry.
You started chasing that ghost, that dragon you had to ride, The sparkle in your eyes was replaced by something deep inside. We'd be lying in bed, you'd be talking about the score, The sweet, soft rush that I could never give you more. I smelled the booze and the smoke, the scent of a desperate night, You called it freedom, escaping the harsh, sober light. You said, "Baby, you ground me, but this thing, it can make me fly," A twisted, jealous love, an electric lie.
(Bridge)
Your lover was lethal, its grasp was too real. I hated the dealer’s call, the whispered needs, the lie, The way that sweet darkness made you feel truly high. You told me I was safe, but safe was the last thing you craved, You needed the fire, the thrill, the soul that couldn't be saved.
(Verse 2)
We did the rehab dance, those weeks where you looked clean, We built up a future, a fragile, beautiful scene. But the moment you left, the demon was waiting by the door, The promise of comfort, the thing you needed more. I found the traces of the horse hidden beneath the sink, A betrayal that made my whole damn world shrink. You looked me in the eyes and said, "It's just for the pain," And I knew then, my love, that I was fighting in vain.
That last Tuesday night, you were shaking, asking for cash, You looked like a ghost, burning out in a terrible flash. You kissed me goodbye, but your lips tasted like sin and regret, I knew I was losing the woman I couldn't forget. You whispered, "This is the only way I can rest," A final, morbid comfort, putting your soul to the test. I lay there awake, watching the clock hands creep slow, Praying you wouldn't take the final blow.
(Chorus)
Oh, my darling, why did the junk take you away? The snow and the M danced your final day. I screamed your name, tried to tether you near, But you clutched the oxy like a secret, a fear. You were my one thing, but the H was your ride or die, And now you're just dust beneath this cold, grey sky. I was the stable love, but the needle’s affection was too true, It promised you heaven, and it delivered you.
(Verse 3)
They called me at dawn, found you cold on the bedroom floor, The baggie was empty, you wanted just one time more. You traded forever for a moment of desperate peace, A tragic, final contract for your sweet release. Now I stand by your stone, and I leave you a single rose, And I curse the false lover that nobody knows. I was your partner, but the Fix was your destiny's pull, It was a jealous, greedy love that took you whole.
Oh, my darling
Oh, my darling
