Chaos in the Calm

Dark nights, I replay, echoes of the love I threw away

Whispered regrets, a bittersweet melody I can't escape

I see us like a fragile glass, slipping through my trembling hands

Was I afraid of the calm or just lost in the chaos I demand?

Every time I get close, I push away, I break the silence

Dancing on the edge of love, scared to find the peace in your eyes

Telling myself I don't deserve your touch

Lost in a cycle I can't break, I know it's too much

But deep inside, I wish I could change

Keep the storm but stay the same

I’m good at ruining good things, turn heaven into heartbreak

Fear’s my refuge, chaos reigns, even when I pray

Guess I find comfort in the pain, it’s all I’ve ever known

I know I hold the key, but I keep locking us in the stone

Apologies in whispers, I’m sorry for the tears

Wasted love, I’m haunted by the ghosts of our fears

Would you stay if I changed, or am I destined to fall?

Caught between what’s real and the chaos I call

Silent nights, I wish I could undo, rewrite my choices

Missing what we had, lost inside my own voices

Maybe someday I’ll find a way to let go of the fight

Until then I’ll drift in shadows, chasing a flickering light