[Intro]
Static in my coffee cup
Cold toast on a paper plate
Phone face down on the counter
Buzzing like a wounded wasp
[Verse 1]
Socks on the kitchen tiles
Sink full of yesterday
Leave all the lights on
Say I’ll clean it up someday
I scroll past every call
Let the birthdays fade
Thumb hovers on your name
Then I put it away
[Chorus]
Help me later
I’m too tired to be saved right now
Let the water climb
I’ll learn to breathe somehow
Help me later
Write it down and fold it in my sleeve
If I look you in the eyes
I’ll have to leave
[Verse 2]
Shirt from a different year
Still smells like lemon rain
Laughing in the supermarket
Before we learned each other’s pain
You said
“Promise me this much
When it hurts
Don’t disappear”
I nodded at the cereal aisle
Now I ghost you every year
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
I build these walls from unread messages
Fortress of almost
Kingdom of averages
I hear your voice in the hum of the train
Calling my first name
Calling my first name
[growled vocals]
Hands on my head
Teeth on my tongue
Words like lead
Lungs come undone
If you break this door
See the cracks run wide
You’ll know every war
That I hide inside
[Breakdown]
[crescendo]
Cut the floor out
Drop me through the center (hey)
Every buried feeling getting louder
Getting denser
Kick in my ribs till the rust falls off
Let the weight I’ve been wearing finally come off
Syncopated heartbeat
Off-time prayer
I’m here
I’m here
I’m here
I swear
But the part of me that needs you most
Keeps turning to a ghost
[Chorus]
[Outro]
[whispered vocals]
If I never say the words
Read them in the mess I made
In the cups
In the clothes
In the quiet
That’s how I’m afraid
Help me later
Fold the plea into a song
If you’re still around tomorrow
Maybe I’ll sing along