[Intro]
Yeah
Talking to God
Late night, man
Just me and these walls
[Verse 1]
Talking to God about my life
Knees on the floor, palms tight
I been on that wrong side twice
Almost let the dark take my light
Cold bunk, lil cell, four walls
Count days, write names on the wall
Made plans, made peace, made calls
Still felt like I might lose it all
Sat there thinking ’bout ending it
Staring at the vent, heavy in the chest
Letter to my mom half written
Like “I’m sorry I ain’t give you my best”
But that voice in my head said “breathe”
“You ain’t done, you ain’t seen what I see”
If I leave, what happens to my team?
So I wiped my face, got up from my knees (yeah)
[Chorus]
Talking to God about my life
All these scars, all this fight
Made mistakes, paid that price
Still He kept my heart on ice
Talking to God when it gets too heavy
Hands too shaky, soul ain’t steady
I was thinking ’bout saying goodbye
Now I’m thanking Him I’m still alive (still alive)
[Verse 2]
My brother in a bed with tubes
Whole fam in a hospital room
Doctor came in, voice so smooth
Said “We don’t know,” air got removed
I watched him fade, then fade back
Lost weight but he never lost faith
He said “If I go, I go brave
But I’m praying I get one more day”
So I matched that, prayed harder
“Take years off me, give ’em to my brother”
We both walked through a different fire
Came out with a different kind of hunger
Now we talk about pain, we don’t run
Turn that shame to a song, to a drum
From a cell and a ward and a slump
To “Look what we survived, where we from” (yeah)
[Chorus]
Talking to God about my life
All these scars, all this fight
Made mistakes, paid that price
Still He kept my heart on ice
Talking to God when it gets too heavy
Hands too shaky, soul ain’t steady
I was thinking ’bout saying goodbye
Now I’m thanking Him I’m still alive
[Bridge]
We came out even stronger (even stronger)
Heart got harder but the faith got longer (longer)
I was on the edge, He pulled me back
Now I wear my past like a badge, not a trap (hey)
[Chorus]
Talking to God about my life
All these scars, all this fight
Made mistakes, paid that price
Still He kept my heart on ice
Talking to God when it gets too heavy
Hands too shaky, soul ain’t steady
I was thinking ’bout saying goodbye
Now I’m thanking Him I’m still alive
Yeah, I’m thanking Him I’m still alive