[Verse 1]
I left the kettle cold beside the sink
Stared at the same blue cup and tried to think
Your message waited, but I couldn't write
I wore yesterday until it smelled like night
[Pre-Chorus]
If I say I'm fine, let the sentence fall
I have been folding inward through it all
[Chorus]
I'm not okay, don't make me prove it
My hands are shaking and I can't get through it
I bite my tongue till the room goes red
Then every quiet thought turns loud inside my head
I'm not okay!
[Verse 2]
The hallway clock keeps missing every beat
I count the floorboards underneath my feet
My sister asked if I had eaten yet
I lied and watched the steam fade from the vent
[Pre-Chorus]
I don't need saving in a perfect line
Just sit beside me while I lose some time
[Chorus]
I'm not okay, don't make me prove it
My hands are shaking and I can't get through it
I bite my tongue till the room goes red
Then every quiet thought turns loud inside my head
I'm not okay!
[Bridge]
Maybe tomorrow starts with one small thing
A glass of water, curtains opening
No grand parade, no promise I can keep
Just one more breath before I fall asleep
[Breakdown]
I am still here
I am still here
Even with the weight
Even with the fear
[Final Chorus]
I'm not okay, but I finally said it
The door is open, I don't have to hide it
Let the whole room hear the words I dread
I am more than every dark thought in my head
I'm not okay!
But I'm still here!
[Outro]
Leave the kettle cold tonight
I'll try again when morning finds the light