Project X

Static in my head again

Rain on the windshield, nothing makes sense

Say you’re fine, but you say it too quick

We both know how this ends

I should’ve read the room better

Read your silence like a warning sign

Every bad week I call it bad luck

Like it wasn’t me crossing the line

We talk like ghosts in the present tense

Dragging the past through a broken night

I remember the blur, not the reason

I remember your name, not why

You still text like you’re bored and lonely

Like I’m a habit you won’t quit

I don’t miss you, I miss distraction

I miss the shape of it

I don’t even want you

I just hate the quiet here

I don’t even want you

I just need somebody near

I don’t even want you

I just like the outline

Someone in my shadow

Someone wasting time

I don’t even want you

And I think you know that too

I don’t even want you

I just don’t want to be alone with me and you

Your side of the bed stays untouched

Mine feels colder every night

All our apologies live in drafts

Unsent, unread, never right

You say we could’ve been something

Like it wasn’t already done

We keep poking the scar to feel real

Just to prove it still hurts some

Why you pulling me back like gravity

When you don’t plan to stay?

You only show up when you’re empty

Then disappear when I break

I don’t even want you

I just hate the quiet here

I don’t even want you

I just need somebody near

I don’t even want you

I just like the outline

Someone in my shadow

Someone wasting time

I don’t even want you

And I think you know that too

I don’t even want you

I just don’t want to sit with the truth

You say my name like a safety net

Like I’ll catch you when you fall

But I’m barely standing upright

I’m not anything at all

We keep confusing comfort for love

Confusing damage for proof

If this was ever real to you

Why does it feel disposable to you?

Cut the sound—

Let it breathe—

Count the seconds

Till you leave

I don’t even want you

I just hate the quiet here

I don’t even want you

I just need somebody near

I don’t even want you

I just like the idea

That I’m not invisible

When someone’s near

I don’t even want you

But I still answer when you call

I don’t even want you

I just don’t know how to want nothing at all

Weather clears, I’m still inside

Blaming clouds I made myself

If I ever learn to sit alone

Maybe I’ll finally need no one else