Heartache

Heartaches are the worst pains because they don’t go away until you’ve tried everything. You can be the strongest, fades away. The smartest and wanna dull your own brain to escape the pain. The wisest and do the dumbest things. (C)

Burning alone with Gods love and no one to share it with, is tougher than hiking with no clothes in the freezing cold while trying to not fall to those who are seeking the wrong warmth. (C)

I hate this mental space filled with so much lonely pain, hurting myself while helping others without showing my own pain. Looking up at the stars wondering if the love I put out will ever come my way. Conflicted between saving others and saving myself, stuck between two borders of humbleness and shame. I prayed for God to take my pain away but he whispered and said it’s not for me to take but for you to give away. For the pain will keep returning until you’ve given me everything. (C)

I smiled with tears in my eyes understanding theirs no other way. For the Lord laid his life down showing us the only way. Did his heart hurt as he was slain by those he came to save? There’s no greater pain than to be lovingly innocent and betrayed, but still he rose from the grave removing the shame and putting love in its place. So Jesus I give you my heartache and receive the love you so freely gave.

(C) Oh oh oh lord how do I get rid of this pain x3