[Verse 1]
Pull my hood up
Fade to black in my room, no sound
Couple texts from my friends, left unread
I’ve been ducking every knock, every name, every crowd
Circle on my screen
Typing then I stop, then I ghost
Tell ’em, “yeah, I’m good,” that’s a script I rehearsed
But the act feels worse than the hurt I host
[Chorus]
I’ve been hiding in my hoodie like it’s armor
Face down, eyes red, getting harder
To admit I’m scared of the light, scared of the love I want
So I sink in the dark, in the dark, in the dark I haunt
(Hey)
I’ve been hiding in my hoodie like a shadow
Heart heavy, hands cold, moving shallow
If you knock on my door and I don’t say a word at all
Just know I’m fighting with the walls
[Verse 2]
Mom call twice
Let it ring, let it ring, can’t talk
’Cause she hears every crack in my voice through the line
And I lie, say I’m fine, then I hate this mask I rock
Scrolling through feeds
Everybody out there, golden, loud
I’m alone with my thoughts and a floor full of clothes
And a list of regrets I don’t say out loud
[Chorus]
I’ve been hiding in my hoodie like it’s armor
Face down, eyes red, getting harder
To admit I’m scared of the light, scared of the love I want
So I sink in the dark, in the dark, in the dark I haunt
(Oh yeah)
I’ve been hiding in my hoodie like a shadow
Heart heavy, hands cold, moving shallow
If you knock on my door and I don’t say a word at all
Just know I’m fighting with the walls
[Bridge]
What if I stepped out?
What if you still stayed?
If I showed every bruise
Would you turn away?
I’m one call from breaking
One word from healing (yeah)
So I leave the light on
Hoping you can feel it
[Chorus]
I’ve been hiding in my hoodie like it’s armor
Face down, eyes red, getting harder
To admit I’m scared of the light, scared of the love I want
So I sink in the dark, in the dark, in the dark I haunt
I’ve been hiding in my hoodie like a shadow
Heart heavy, hands cold, moving shallow
If you knock on my door and I don’t say a word at all
Just stay, I’m trying not to fall