Verse 1
Late nights on my own with the weight on my chest.
City feel cold but I learned how to rest in the stress.
Lost something sacred way before I was grown.
Eight months pregnant dreams turned into stone.
That pain made a man out a kid real quick.
Taught me life ruthless but it still got beauty in it.
I been broke with a vision rich in my mind.
Clock keep ticking but I move on my time.
ADHD thoughts running laps in my head.
World say slow down but I sprint instead.
I gamble on myself yeah I roll them dice.
If it all fall apart Imma rebuild it twice.
Hook
Still here still pushing yeah I wear that scar.
Heart full of pain but it took me far.
Love feel risky but I still dive in.
If I lose it all Imma rise again.
No map no plan just faith and grit.
They dont see the fight but I live in it.
Still here still pushing through the night.
I been losing battles but Im winning life.
Verse 2
Relationships shaky got that anxious tie.
I pull back then I reach out hate that part of my mind.
I love deep when Im in I protect whats mine.
Just scared of betrayal like its wired inside.
I dont need perfection I need honesty.
Someone who can sit in the dark with me.
I cope with a pen turn pain into bars.
Lyrics bleed truth like they fresh from the scars.
From carnivore discipline to gym plans ahead.
Trying sculpt a body that match my head.
Correctional dreams trying get my footing right.
Still fighting demons every damn night.
Hook
Still here still pushing yeah I wear that scar.
Heart full of pain but it took me far.
Love feel risky but I still dive in.
If I lose it all Imma rise again.
No map no plan just faith and grit.
They dont see the fight but I live in it.
Still here still pushing through the night.
I been losing battles but Im winning life.
Bridge R and B
If I disappear its just me healing.
Silence loud but my soul still breathing.
Hold me close dont let me drift away.
I promise Im trying even on my worst days.
Verse 3
I like dark colors cause my mind been there.
Black tees gray skies still standing rare.
Impulsive moves yeah I leap then look.
Life a gamble but I like that hook.
I dont fear the chaos I learned its my home.
Unpredictable roads made me who Ive grown.
I dont chase validation I chase peace.
Trying love myself without feeling weak.
If tomorrow homeless Im still a king.
Cause worth not tied to material things.
I been bent not broken tested by fire.
Still here still pushing thats my entire attire.
Final Hook
Still here still pushing yeah thats the code.
Every scar a mile on this heavy road.
If I fall apart watch me build again.
Pain turned purpose let the story end.
Still here still pushing say it twice for proof.
Im not done yet this just phase one truth.
