In The Middle Of It

Verse 1

There’s glitter on the kitchen floor,

Sticky shoes and slamming doors,

Someone’s yelling lyrics I don’t know

I laugh like I’m supposed to

Nod along to half a joke

But no one really notices I’m quiet

I hug a girl I barely know

She says, “We have to hang out soon”

We both know we won’t

I check my phone like it might glow

With something pulling me back home

But it’s just silence in my pocket

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Pre-Chorus

And I keep drifting room to room

Like maybe I’ll feel different soon

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Chorus

I’m in the middle of it

Music loud, but I don’t feel it

Hundred people in this room

And I’ve never felt so removed

They’re all laughing like it’s easy

Like their hearts aren’t kinda heavy

I’m just standing in the blur

Like I don’t belong to it

I came out to feel alive

Now I just wanna disappear tonight

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Verse 2

Someone spills a drink on me

Says, “Oh my God, I’m so sorry”

I say, “It’s fine,” like I mean it

Cold and soaking through my sleeve

Same way something’s soaking me

But I can’t name the feeling

There’s girls in heels on countertops

And boys who can’t stand up and talk

Everyone’s a little gone

And I’m not drunk enough to float

Through this like it’s beautiful

I just feel everything too strong

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Pre-Chorus

I catch my reflection in the glass

And I don’t recognize who that is

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Chorus

I’m in the middle of it

Lights are flashing, I’m not in it

Every face is passing through

But nobody is staying, too

They’ve got circles, they’ve got stories

Inside jokes and shared mornings

I just orbit for a while

Then I fade out of their sight

I came out to feel alive

Why do I feel more alone tonight?

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Bridge

I keep thinking this is what I’m supposed to love

Early twenties, going out, staying up

But I’m counting minutes, not memories

Trying on a life that doesn’t fit me

What’s the point of showing up

If I still feel like I’m not enough

In a crowded room, invisible

God, it shouldn’t feel this difficult

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Breakdown (soft)

So I say bye to someone I just met

Grab my jacket, don’t make it a thing

Cold air hits like honesty

And I finally breathe

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Final Chorus (stripped, then build)

I was in the middle of it

But I never really felt it

Hundred people, no one knew

I was breaking in plain view

They were laughing like it’s easy

Maybe it is, just not for me

Maybe fun’s not where I’ve been

Maybe I just haven’t found it yet

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Outro

Streetlights blur as I walk home

Heels in my hand, phone still cold

And I don’t know what’s wrong with me

But I know I couldn’t stay

Yeah, I wanted to feel alive

But I think I just survived tonight