Junkie

this junk will make you numb

this junk will make you dumb

this junk will turn you into a monster

this junk will make you go harder

this junk will tear you down,

one day you'll look into the mirror and

frown,

who the fuck are you staring back at me?

just another excuse to flee.

You'll sell your very soul, for JUST ONE MORE,

Till all that's left is an empty core.

This junk will turn you from beauty to beast,

you'll give away everything you love at the very least.

This junk will become your one and only love,

Seem to fit so perfectly, like an expensive glove.

This junk will eat you from the inside out,

make you scream aloud yet nobody hears your shout.

I thought you loved me, thought you were my very best friend,

but now you're killing me and want me dead.

I hear your voice in my head, feel yourcaress burn through my veins,

Now my family thinks I’m insane.

I try to run from you, but you’re there too,

how the f**k do I live, when I can’t live with or without you!

i await for someone to save me, to show me what to do.

Finally when i'm beat down hurting with nothing left to give,

God’s love and grace shines down on me and shows me a new life to live.

Sick tired defeated almost dead,

I turn my back on you and turn to GOD instead,

I learn how to put my broken pieces back together and get you out of my head!

I take a look in the mirror again,

And Now I love the woman looking back, “damn girl where have you been?”

Sometimes I still hear your soft voice in my ears,

but I now have a new FAMILY, whose 12 STEPS squash my fears.

and nowadays I even walk away from beer.

My journey back from heroin has been a painful one and taken many years,

but I’m happy now,

something you would never allow,

and JUST FOR TODAY

i am ok,

and I now know true freedom and I’m so

damn happy you went away!