I've survived me

Used to run from my reflection,

Ashamed of who I’d been.

Tried to drink away the silence,

But the silence always wins.

Seven years since I fell that low,

Still carry echoes in my bones.

But every piece I tried to hide

Built the girl who’s still alive.

I’ve been the heartbreak,

I’ve been the flame.

I’ve been the one

who whispered her name

in a hospital bed,

afraid of the end—

but look at me now,

I’ve learned how to bend.

I’ve survived me,

That’s the hardest part.

More than lovers leaving

or a shattered heart.

When the world went quiet,

and all I heard was pain,

I held myself through the pouring rain.

I’ve survived me—

And that’s something.

That’s everything.

Then he came in like a soft light,

Across a screen, three hours behind.

A voice that knew just how to hold

The fragile parts I never showed.

He makes music, I take the shots—

Pictures of a life we almost lost.

And now February holds our fate,

Two hands that distance couldn't break.

I still get scared, I still retreat,

Still doubt the ground beneath my feet.

But I’m still soft, and still I try—

Even with tears in both my eyes.

I’ve survived me,

That’s the miracle here.

I faced the dark,

Then held it near.

Every scar tells a different line

Of all the ways I stayed alive.

I’ve survived me—

The storm, the shame,

The girl I thought

I couldn’t save.

I used to wish I was someone new…

But now I know,

I was always meant to be

just me.

I’ve survived me—

Not just once, but every day.

Through the guilt, through the rage,

Through the lies I’d replay.

And now I’m loving, now I’m loved—

Even from miles above.

This is my truth,

My victory,

I’ve survived me.

And I’m finally free.