Withdrawal exhausted

Emotionally exhausted, I have lost it again. Thoughts screaming. Use again, one beer fine your feel better. Satin’s CREEPIN IN….under attack again, it’s like pains my friend and the pain never ends I feel I have no friends no fam feelings again. How many times can we tell the same lies, but yet we always acts surprised. We do this all the time it’s like pain is what we like. Uhhhh…….

Hands twitching, legs shakin, night sweats they don’t feel the best. Heart thumping, turn the music on beats thumping thru your chest. Hip hop music , Christian flow here we go again. Day one the worst of em all. You sit there you , feel empty like you lost your best friend sitting there thinking ffffff here we go again. I’m never do this again, bla bla bla 3,4 times a night wake up change clothes , in bed straight frooozeeen. It don’t matter me you or them.

Day two starts to loosen but you keep tripping bout the friend us keep loosing, irritability it will set in, anxiousness hell yea what else can we pour in. Mix alot of depression (ya just lost you best friend) lay there gotta shower yup there goes 5 more hours. No motivation to get up loaner are aching. the room starts shaken. The one thing you got back is your DETERMINATION!

Day 3 Same as day 2 then for the next 3. I’m starting to see what the thru purpose is if me. I like what i see it’s 100% it’s who I’m destined to be.i believe I believe get this devil away from me.