Dreading the switch

I've had it with the most of things, can't be sure if I'll explode or be chill today, what a feeling of apprehension it brings, I'm sure it is a gift to just be away from me, not sure how to take the swings, much easier to just Pepsi drop a bitch, than deal with my modes and the sudden way my moods switch, as fast I was happyp you'll see, I'm dropping down from the clouds without taking a blink, nobody around me can deal, or seems to know what to think, and I can't blame them at all you see, what you see is what you get, so what you wanted to see is leaving me with regret because this is one of those things, that's out of my control no matter what kind of turmoil it brings, no matter how hard I try to forget that I'm feeling so bad inside, it boils up to the surface and I can push it down for a little while before it all comes spewing out in extreme, but really you never know how long its been bothering me, I'll shut down so you can feel safe, fake or now but later you'll be dealing with the consequences times ten