If only

If only I could be happy instead of always feeling so sad if only my life wouldn't have been so depression and bad if only my heart didn't have to carry all of this pain if only I didn't live my life always in vain if only I could have been able to forget all of my past if only my mother and father wouldn't have had to die so fast if only I had a place to call my own if only I would have been there to see my children all grown if only I could have found a love to love only me if only I could have been what God planned for me to be if only I would have followed that path I would have led me to the light then maybe just maybe my life would have been bright