I learned how to smile with a war in my chest
Say I’m okay when I’m barely getting rest
Family wounds I was told to suppress
When the hands that hurt you were the ones you trusted best
I was young but I aged overnight
Carried fear just to make it through life
They say “man up,” don’t show the fight
But they never teach you how to sleep at night
I bleed in silence, laugh in crowds
Scream my pain but not out loud
I give my heart, don’t ask how
Still hoping love won’t let me down
Somehow I’m still here
With a heart full of cracks and a face full of tears
I gave my love to the wrong ones
But I still wake up through the fear
I’ve been lost, I’ve been torn apart
I’ve been fighting wars inside my heart
I don’t know how I survived this year
But somehow… somehow I’m still here
I loved her like she was air in my lungs
Like losing her meant I’d come undone
She said she didn’t know what she wanted
While I was giving her everything I was
I stayed through the maybes and lies
‘Cause leaving felt worse than the nights I cried
I chased reassurance like it was life
Ignored every red flag just to feel alive
I text ghosts like they’ll reply
Hold onto things that already died
I hate how pain feels safe sometimes
Like it’s been with me my whole life
Somehow I’m still here
With my trust in pieces and my faith unclear
I gave my soul just to feel loved
But I still wake up through the fear
I’ve been bent, I’ve been scarred, not healed
Still learning what’s fake and what’s real
I don’t know how I survived this year
But somehow… somehow I’m still here
Maybe I thought I deserved the pain
Maybe chaos felt like my name
Sometimes you hold onto the dark
‘Cause it’s the only thing that stayed
But I’m tired of breaking for love
Tired of bleeding just to be enough
If I made it out of all that hell
Maybe that means I’m stronger than I felt
Somehow I’m still here
Yeah I fell so hard but I disappeared
Came back with scars, no fear
Still standing after all these years
I’ve been weak, I’ve been strong
Still singing through everything wrong
I don’t know how I survived this year
But somehow… somehow I’m still here
