Somehow i’m still here

I learned how to smile with a war in my chest

Say I’m okay when I’m barely getting rest

Family wounds I was told to suppress

When the hands that hurt you were the ones you trusted best

I was young but I aged overnight

Carried fear just to make it through life

They say “man up,” don’t show the fight

But they never teach you how to sleep at night

I bleed in silence, laugh in crowds

Scream my pain but not out loud

I give my heart, don’t ask how

Still hoping love won’t let me down

Somehow I’m still here

With a heart full of cracks and a face full of tears

I gave my love to the wrong ones

But I still wake up through the fear

I’ve been lost, I’ve been torn apart

I’ve been fighting wars inside my heart

I don’t know how I survived this year

But somehow… somehow I’m still here

I loved her like she was air in my lungs

Like losing her meant I’d come undone

She said she didn’t know what she wanted

While I was giving her everything I was

I stayed through the maybes and lies

‘Cause leaving felt worse than the nights I cried

I chased reassurance like it was life

Ignored every red flag just to feel alive

I text ghosts like they’ll reply

Hold onto things that already died

I hate how pain feels safe sometimes

Like it’s been with me my whole life

Somehow I’m still here

With my trust in pieces and my faith unclear

I gave my soul just to feel loved

But I still wake up through the fear

I’ve been bent, I’ve been scarred, not healed

Still learning what’s fake and what’s real

I don’t know how I survived this year

But somehow… somehow I’m still here

Maybe I thought I deserved the pain

Maybe chaos felt like my name

Sometimes you hold onto the dark

‘Cause it’s the only thing that stayed

But I’m tired of breaking for love

Tired of bleeding just to be enough

If I made it out of all that hell

Maybe that means I’m stronger than I felt

Somehow I’m still here

Yeah I fell so hard but I disappeared

Came back with scars, no fear

Still standing after all these years

I’ve been weak, I’ve been strong

Still singing through everything wrong

I don’t know how I survived this year

But somehow… somehow I’m still here