[Intro]
I keep the door chained from the inside
Let the dust settle where the questions died
[Verse 1]
You ask me what happened
I study the floor
There are names in the silence
I cannot afford
To place in your hands
To watch them turn real
So I swallow the answer
And bury the feel
[Pre-Chorus]
Not every wound wants witness
Not every truth needs sound
I know you came to reach me
But I choose the quiet now
[Chorus]
I would rather disappear than explain
Let the pressure press a bruise into my veins
When the worst parts of me start to rise
I lock them behind my teeth and close my eyes
Don’t call it cold
Don’t call it fear
Silence is the only thing I can bear
[Verse 2]
I have tried being honest
It came back with a cost
Every open confession
Showed me what could be lost
So I measure my breathing
And keep my hands still
There is safety in distance
When the heart breaks at will
[Pre-Chorus]
Not every wound wants witness
Not every truth needs sound
Your kindness feels like thunder
When I am underground
[Chorus]
I would rather disappear than explain
Let the pressure press a bruise into my veins
When the worst parts of me start to rise
I lock them behind my teeth and close my eyes
Don’t call it cold
Don’t call it fear
Silence is the only thing I can bear
[Breakdown]
I am not ready
I am not yours to open
I am still holding
The pieces I have broken
No more questions
No more hands around my throat
If I cannot speak
Then let the silence hold
[Bridge]
Maybe one day I will leave the door unlatched
Maybe one day I will let the past unpack
But tonight I need the dark to stay mine
No borrowed comfort
No borrowed line
[Final Chorus]
I would rather disappear than explain
Let the pressure press a bruise into my veins
When the worst parts of me start to rise
I lock them behind my teeth and close my eyes
Don’t call it cold
Don’t call it fear
Silence is the only thing I can bear
[Outro]
If you love me, let the quiet remain
I am learning how to carry the weight