Bottle full of pills in my hand—feels awesome
I can see your girl in my line—she’ll be the next one
You know what it is, we don’t talk, we ’bout the action
Then she saw my dick, she was like, “Damn, that’s the right one”
Chorus
Pills knocking at the door, I’ma let ‘em in
They gon’ do what they do ‘cause I’m tryna feel again
What’s right? What’s real? I don’t know how to heal
Tired of this pain, so I’m reaching for my pills
Verse
Ah, running my race now, blowing up my face now
Even if I lose, I still feel like I’m the best—how?
Everything’s blurry in my head, I’ma get high
Reaching new heights ‘cause I know I’m finna die
Tell me, is this real life or fiction?
‘Cause I’m too smart to die from addiction
Take my mind high, alright, that’s a mission
I’m going down, but it’s through my mistakes
Tell me, is this real life or fiction?
‘Cause I’m too smart to die from addiction
Take my mind high, alright, that’s a mission
I’m going down, but it’s through my mistakes
Verse
Pills in my veins, heart racing too fast
Clock ticking loud, don’t know how long I’ll last
I see my demons, they laughing, they lurk
Tried to escape, but I’m deep in the dirt
Voices in my head saying, “Pop one more”
Numb to the pain, I can’t feel no more
Maybe I’m lost, maybe I’m gone
Or maybe I’m right where I truly belong
I can hear my mama praying every night
Saying, “Lord, please save him, bring him to the light”
But I’m too deep, drowning in my sins
Looking in the mirror, don’t know where I’ve been
Fast life got me stuck in the dark
Flames in my soul, I done lost my spark
Everybody love you when you up on top
But when you fall down, all that love just stops
Outro
I’m high as hell, mind everywhere
My pain I can’t tell, on my way to hell
(RIP yeah )
Chorus
Pills knocking at the door, I’ma let ‘em in
They gon’ do what they do ‘cause I’m tryna feel again
What’s right? What’s real? I don’t know how to heal
Tired of this pain, so I’m reaching for my pills
Outro Tag
This is Tonnie Boy
Y’all already know—hey, Tonnie Boy
Tonnie