Lights dark

This my story

I still remember that cold night air heart racing

One second normal life next second death facing

Flash of the muzzle loud bang world froze

Felt fire in my chest blood soaking my clothes

And the ones I called my brothers they froze then ran

Left me bleeding on the concrete wasnt part of the plan

Tried to save there own skin didnt look back twice

Showed me real quick what betrayal look like

Every breath heavy fighting just to exist

Pain in my ribs every time that I twist

Vision going blurry I was fading in the dark

Talking to myself stay alive dont depart

Thought about my family thought about my past

All the dumb mistakes man life moving fast

Regret hit deeper than the bullet in my skin

I aint wanna die young I aint ready give in

Doctors in the ER cutting through fear

Flatline dancing close but Im still right here

Stitches like battle scars pain in every seam

But I woke up breathing thats second chance dream

Now I move different every sunrise a gift

Every little problem man it dont even hit

Cause I done seen death felt it whisper my name

Now I walk with purpose I dont play with the game

They showed they true colors when it mattered most

Turned day one homies to straight up ghosts

But that pain built muscle now my circle tight

Loyalty earned not just words you recite

They tried bury me but I grew from the ground

Bullet couldnt stop me I survived that round

Heart still beating got story to tell

I been inches from heaven one step from hell.

Life on thread hanging thin like wire

Cold steel in my chest but my soul still fire

Laying in recovery tubes in my veins

Beeping monitors syncing with pain

Nights felt longer than ever before

Every scar reminder what Im living for

Had face my fear when the room went quiet

PTSD creeping mind start riot

Loud noises make my heartbeat race

See that night replay every time I close face

But I refuse be victim of past

That bullet hit flesh but it didnt make crash

I rebuilt myself from trauma and tears

Turned survival instincts to discipline gears

Cut off fake love cut off fake ties

No more blurred vision I see through disguise

If you wasnt there when I was flat on floor

Dont knock now that Im opening doors

Therapy sessions learning how breathe

Forgiving myself for who I used be

Strength aint silence strength truth

Facing demons raising roof

I cherish small things sun on my skin

Coffee in morning laughter with the boys

When you almost lose it all in flash

You realize real wealth aint money or cash

Its time its love

Its the peace in mind its growth in soul

Im not who I was on that cold concrete

Im man who stood back up on wounded feet

They tried end my chapter thought it was done

But my story kept going after page one

From blood on pavement to purpose profound

I dont fear dark I already been down

And if death ever whisper again in ear

I look back at it and say not this year

Cause I fought too hard just breathe this air

Im living proof that God still cares.