you said you’d die without me
like it was fate, like a curse
said my love was the only thing
keeping you on this earth
so i stayed when i was empty
when loving you felt like fear
i carried all of your darkness
and hid how much i disappeared
you used to swear i was your reason
your last light, your proof
now i watch you give that same smile
to someone new
i see you alive and glowing
doing fine without my name
and i wonder how you said those words
without feeling ashamed
you said you’d die without me
i let that sentence chain my feet
i thought leaving meant killing you
so i stayed and buried me
now you’re laughing in new places
wearing happiness like it’s yours
while i’m stuck in the silence
of everything we were
i replay every promise
every “i can’t live if you go”
funny how you learned to breathe
the second i let go
you said i was your forever
said no one else would do
but forever didn’t last long
once you found someone new
i see your life moving forward
like i was just a scar
something you healed from quickly
while i’m still where we are
you said you’d die without me
but you look so alive
and i’m the one counting hours
just trying to survive
i gave you my whole heart
to keep yours from falling apart
now i’m standing in the wreckage
holding what’s left of mine
you found love like it was nothing
like i was easy to replace
and i’m still breaking in the spaces
where you once said i was safe
you said you’d die without me
i believed it was true
now i know you were just scared
to be alone, not to lose me—just to lose you
and i hate that i still miss you
even after all this pain
hate that i still hear your voice
when i hear your name
you’re alive and you’re happy
and i guess that’s the proof
you said you’d die without me
but i almost died believing you
