I fucking hate you

I grew up with the mindset you stick it out for better or worse

Granny and papa loved like nothing id ever seen

I wanted it

I craved it

I begged you to stay but you left anyways

Wished you didn’t come back

Cause I fucking hate you I wish I could blame you

Every wrong we couldn’t make wright

Every dream I sacrificed

There’s no easy way to leaving and apart of me still stays

The want the wish the hurt the kiss the lies to get me to stay

The mind games you played to weak to walk away

No end in sight no peace of mind

Cause I fucking hate you I wanted to change you

My silence was calming though it echoed so loud

Stayed for all the what ifs and left with no doubts

The future I built in the back of my mind still lingers but I know you know

There’s no coming back from this it’s all empty promises

Checked out while you where checked in

There’s no love left in this home it’s all dark and alone

Cause I cause I fucking hate you

I can’t change you

I tried for so long gave all I had it’ll never be enough

Stayed for every what if and left with no doubts

But I know you know

But I still fucking hate you

Yeah I fucking hate you.