Words I Never Said

The day you left, I never said goodbye

Got that call, didn’t feel real till I saw you lying there

Still picture you frozen in my mind

Like you were sleeping, but I knew it wasn’t fair

I thought I had more time to say

All the things I kept for another day

Now every night I hear your voice

Asking me if I’m okay

Pre-Chorus

I miss the check-ins, miss your laugh

Miss driving by just to see you there

Now every memory cuts me deep

And I’m breaking down, but no one sees

Chorus

Fuck the holidays, they don’t feel right

Empty seats, silent nights

Thanksgiving hurts, your birthday too

Every season leads me back to you

They say I’ll heal, but I’m not okay

I’m tired of being strong this way

Fuck the holidays, let me feel

This pain is real, this pain is real

I miss the little things you’d do

Teaching me life without a rule

Said I’d always be your baby girl

No matter what this world puts me through

August still lives inside my chest

The day we had to let you rest

I’m holding on the best I can

But grief don’t follow no command

Pre-Chorus

I talk to God on sleepless nights

Asking Him to hold us tight

If I could hear you one more time

Even in a dream, I’d be alright

Chorus

Fuck the holidays, they don’t feel right

Empty seats, silent nights

Every date just reminds me why

I’m still hurting, still asking why

Don’t say I’m strong, don’t say I’m fine

I’m healing slow, in my own time

Fuck the holidays, let me feel

This pain is real, this pain is real

Outro

I carry you with me every day

In every word I never got to say