Words I Never Said

The day you left, I never said goodbye
Got that call, didn’t feel real till I saw you lying there
Still picture you frozen in my mind
Like you were sleeping, but I knew it wasn’t fair

I thought I had more time to say
All the things I kept for another day
Now every night I hear your voice
Asking me if I’m okay
Pre-Chorus
I miss the check-ins, miss your laugh
Miss driving by just to see you there

Now every memory cuts me deep
And I’m breaking down, but no one sees

Chorus
Fuck the holidays, they don’t feel right
Empty seats, silent nights
Thanksgiving hurts, your birthday too
Every season leads me back to you
They say I’ll heal, but I’m not okay
I’m tired of being strong this way
Fuck the holidays, let me feel
This pain is real, this pain is real
I miss the little things you’d do
Teaching me life without a rule
Said I’d always be your baby girl
No matter what this world puts me through
August still lives inside my chest
The day we had to let you rest
I’m holding on the best I can
But grief don’t follow no command
Pre-Chorus
I talk to God on sleepless nights
Asking Him to hold us tight
If I could hear you one more time
Even in a dream, I’d be alright

Chorus
Fuck the holidays, they don’t feel right
Empty seats, silent nights
Every date just reminds me why
I’m still hurting, still asking why
Don’t say I’m strong, don’t say I’m fine
I’m healing slow, in my own time
Fuck the holidays, let me feel
This pain is real, this pain is real

Outro
I carry you with me every day
In every word I never got to say

R&B