[Intro – Soft Spoken]
Yeah…
Sometimes the strongest people
be hurting the most…
And nobody even knows…
(deep breath)
If y’all could see behind this smile…
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[Verse 1]
I wake up every morning with this weight on my chest
Tryna smile through the pain like I’m okay at best
Everybody say I’m strong, “you gon’ make it through”
But they don’t see these tears every night in this room
Ever since you left, it ain’t been the same
Half of me gone, now I’m drowning in pain
I still hear your voice when the house gets quiet
And I break all over when I try to fight it
I been losing sleep, I been losing me
Trying not to fall apart emotionally
Putting on this mask just to make it by
But deep down inside… I’m losing my mind
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[Pre-Chorus]
And I keep asking God why You called them home
Why You took the one that helped me stay strong
I’m trying to understand Your plan for me
But this hurt cuts so deep…
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[Chorus]
If only y’all knew what was hiding behind this smile
All this pain I carry been weighing on me for miles
I laugh so nobody worries
But my soul been crying out loudly
Some nights I feel like I’m going insane
Trying to heal while I’m drowning in rain
But I still keep faith through the hurt and the trial
Cause I know God gon’ pull me out… after a while
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[Verse 2]
People only see the surface, not the battle within
Don’t know how hard it gets just tryna breathe again
I gave my love, my heart, my trust, my all
Now I’m standing in the dark trying not to fall
And I hate pretending everything okay
When I’m one bad thought from breaking away
I smile in public, then cry alone
Wish I could pick up the phone and call you home
I miss your laugh, your words, your light
I miss the way you made my world feel right
But I know this season won’t last forever
God got me even through stormy weather
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[Bridge – Emotional Runs / Choir Builds]
So I…
Lift my head up even when my soul tired
And I…
Keep believing even through the fire
(Choir harmonies)
“This is just a season…”
“This is just a season…”
And I know…
One day the sun gon’ shine again
Even if my heart gotta break before it mend…
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[Final Chorus – Bigger Vocals]
If only y’all knew what was hiding behind this smile
All these silent battles been breaking me down inside
Still I get up every morning
Still I keep my faith through the hurting
Cause God never said the road would be easy
But He promised He would never leave me
So I’ll keep holding on through every trial
Cause I know He gon’ pull me out…
Yeah…
He gon’ pull me out…
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[Outro – Soft Spoken Ad-libs]
I’m healing…
Even when it don’t look like it…
God… I trust You…
I just miss ‘em…
Yeah…
(fading harmonies)
“Behind this smile…”
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