[Verse 1]
I lost my phone
While I held my phone
Three tabs open
And a door unlocked
My brain’s like, hey
We should clean the sink
Then I stare at a spoon
For a minute, think
I made a list
Of all my lists
Then I forgot
What the first list was
[Pre-Chorus]
Heart doing flips
Mind doing cartwheels
I said "I’m fine"
But my left eye twitches
I got a plan
Then I forgot it
On the way to the plan
I got distracted
[Chorus]
Up and down, up and down
That’s my whole little circus
Up and down, up and down
I laugh so I don’t curse it
I’m a mess, I’m a myth
I’m a loading screen in progress
Up and down, up and down
Hey, at least I’m honest
(Up and down)
(up and down)
[Verse 2]
I miss a text
Then write a poem
Then panic hard
At a bowl in the road
My bed says stay
My shoes say go
My chest says run
But my legs say slow
I rehearse a scene
For a tiny call
Then after the beep
I know nothing at all
I overthink
A sandwich choice
“Too crunchy, too soggy”
I hear that voice
[Pre-Chorus]
Mind got a drumroll
Belly got thunder
I’m "doing okay"
With a doom-scroll under
One more thing
Then one more thing
Then the whole damn room
Starts spinning again
[Chorus]
Up and down, up and down
That’s my whole little circus
Up and down, up and down
I laugh so I don’t curse it
I’m a mess, I’m a myth
I’m a loading screen in progress
Up and down, up and down
Hey, at least I’m honest
(Up and down)
(up and down)
[Bridge]
Some days I glow
Some days I fold
Some days I’m brave
Some days I’m cold
I know the climb
I know the slide
I know the joke
That keeps me alive
So if I’m late
Or if I freeze
Just give me a chair
And let me breathe
[Final Chorus]
Up and down, up and down
That’s my whole little circus
Up and down, up and down
I laugh so I don’t curse it
I’m a mess, I’m a myth
I’m a loading screen in progress
Up and down, up and down
Hey, at least I’m honest
(Up and down)
(up and down)
(Still here)
(Still trying)