[Verse 1]
Ashtray halo
Burnt wings, cheap halo
Bathroom floor, cold tile, mascara
Smudged like a crime scene camera
"Just one more"
Turned to "lost count"
Little white lie, big black out
Friends stopped calling, I tuned out
Scrolling through ghosts in my phone
Everybody moved on, I froze
Mom still prays I come home
I keep dodging every call she throws
[Chorus]
I'm drowning in my glass veins
Poison in my Sunday dress
Black roses in my rib cage
Every breath a whispered "yes"
Saints don't stay where I lay
Only shadows know my name
I wear my shame like wet lace
And it never washes away
[Verse 2]
Pills on the sink like teeth
Falling out my careless mouth
Doctor said "you gotta quit"
Dealer said "I got a different route"
Mirror girl, dead stare
Track marks like cracked paint there
I scrub my skin till it burns
But the stain sits deep, never learns
Late night, streetlight, cheap thrill
I trade my sleep for the next chill
Swore I'd stop when it got real
Now "too late" is all I feel
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[whispered vocals]
If I scream in this dirty bed
Will the ceiling cave, will the fear be fed
Will they find my name in a hospital file
Or a headline no one reads for a while
[gothic choir rising]
Forgive me, forgive me
I don't know how to be clean
Save me, save me
From the altar of my need
[Chorus]