Surrendering

Lost in a trapped day again

The lonly bed my home

My blanket anxiety and pain

Nothing unknown

And I'm on my own

Breathing fast and deep

Fear is rising

I never can sleep

Is there any help or is it disguising

That you turned of, I just recognizing

My thoughts my missery

My head my enemy

I'm surrendering

Don't want to feel

Just take everything

My emotions have the steering wheel

I'm breaking, collapsing

Tell me where I left the road, I want to heal

Me and myself disagree

The past is comming through

I'm tearing appart, can't you see

Can't find in me the truth

I'm ready to lose

Overwhelming frustration

No helping hand, you all let me fall

Frustration turning into resignation

Nothing left at all

Thought I gave it all

My thoughts my missery

My head my enemy

I'm surrendering

Don't want to feel

Just take everything

My emotions have the steering wheel

I'm breaking, collapsing

Tell me where I left the road, I want to heal

Relive me of this pain

Relive me of this pain

Relive me of this

Relive me of this pain

No

No, i can't hold on anymore

My thoughts my missery

My head my enemy

I'm surrendering

Don't want to feel

Just take everything

My emotions have the steering wheel

I'm breaking, collapsing

Tell me where I left the road, I want to heal

Sad to know, there are no roads left

In my lungs the last breath

In front of me the ultimate death