[Verse 1]
I was raised on little rations
Half a promise
Half a prayer
I learned hunger in the hallway
While they laughed in softer chairs
I took seconds
I took crumbs
I licked the salt from every word
You call it sin
I call it starting
I call it something I prefer
[Chorus]
I want it harder
Say my name and shut the door
If it hurts
It means I’m here
I want it harder
On the floor and then the floor
I want it harder
I want more
I want more
[Verse 2]
You offer mercy like a coupon
Folded neatly
Almost kind
But I’m a faithful
Faithful beggar
To the ache you try to hide
So don’t dress it up in kindness
Don’t pretend that you’re the cure
Press your promise
To my bruises
Let me feel what I’m not sure
[Chorus]
I want it harder
Say my name and shut the door
If it breaks
It makes it real
I want it harder
On the floor and then the floor
I want it harder
I want more
I want more
[Bridge]
You ask
“Tell me when it’s too much”
As if the word could cross my lips
I’ve built temples out of torment
I’ve found comfort in the drift
So if there’s judgement
Let it judge me
I have knelt to this before
I’m so bad
I stay believing
In the sting
And in the want for more
[Chorus]
I want it harder
Say my name and shut the door
If it’s wrong
It feels familiar
I want it harder
On the floor and then the floor
I want it harder
I want more
I want more