[Verse 1]
You said “I’m here”
Then you disappeared
I was counting every crack
In the ceiling of my fear
Phone cold in my hands
Tears hot on my face
Your name on the screen
Then nothing but space
[Pre-Chorus]
I begged for a lifeline
You sent me a ghost
You swore I was precious
You cherished the boast
[Chorus]
Where were you when I needed you?
Where were you when my world caved in?
I loved you
You never loved me
You just loved the way my breaking made you feel whole
Where were you
When I lost control?
[Verse 2]
You liked my scars
When they spelled your name
Held my shaking hands
Like a trophy for your shame
Said I was “your one”
Then you watched me drown
You just liked the story
Of how you held me down
[Pre-Chorus]
I reached for your promise
You slipped from my grip
You called it devotion
I called it a script
[Chorus]
Where were you when I needed you?
Where were you when my lungs burned out?
I loved you
You never loved me
You just loved the way my bleeding proved your worth
Where were you
When I hit the earth?
[Bridge]
You thought that you did (thought that you did)
But you loved the idea (loved the idea)
Of saving a girl
Who was saving herself
You thought that you did (thought that you did)
But you loved the reflection
Of my hurt in your hands
Not my heart on the shelf (hey!)
[Chorus]
Where were you when I needed you?
Where were you when I screamed your name?
I loved you
You never loved me
You just loved the power of watching me fall apart
Where were you
When I lost my heart?
Where were you
When I lost my heart?