[Verse 1]
They say let it go, let it fade
Lay the weapons down you made
But I sharpen them at night
In the quiet out of sight
I rehearse what I would say
If your ghost walked in today
Mercy trembles on my tongue
But revenge is younger, strong
[Pre-Chorus]
I know forgiveness sets you free
So why’s this chain still part of me?
[Chorus]
I still struggle
With the fire I keep alive
I still struggle
Letting mercy survive
Every wound I try to close
Leaves a darker version of my soul
I still struggle
Yeah, I still struggle
[Verse 2]
I look calm in public light
But I fracture every night
Smile sharp enough to cut
Truth I bury in my gut
I could choose a softer road
Drop this heavy, iron code
But anger fits me like a skin
And I don’t know who I’d be without it
[Pre-Chorus]
If I forgive, what’s left of me?
If I don’t, I never leave.
[Chorus]
I still struggle
With the fire I keep alive
I still struggle
Letting mercy survive
Every wound I try to close
Leaves a darker version of my soul
I still struggle
Yeah, I still struggle
[Bridge – darker]
Watch it grow behind my eyes
Shadow dressed in my disguise
I don’t want to be this cold
But bitterness feels like control
[Final Chorus – Round 1]
I still struggle
With the man I’m turning to
I still struggle
With the things I want to do
If I ever cross that line
It won’t be fate — it will be mine
I still struggle
Yeah… I still struggle
[Melodic Guitar Solo — slow, emotional, then rising darker]
[Final Chorus – Round 2 — Bigger/More Villain Energy]
I still struggle
But the darkness knows my name
I still struggle
Still I'm feeding every flame
Every scar I never healed
Turns the lock I tried to seal
I still struggle
But I'm closer than before
I still struggle
Standing at a darker door
If forgiveness never comes
I'll become what I've become
I still struggle
Still I struggle
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