[Verse 1]
I sit on my hands
’til the knuckles turn white
Watch the ceiling
Like it’s gonna write
One
Word
Back
My coffee’s gone cold
And the Bible stays shut
Every verse I memorized
Tastes like rust
In my
Mouth
[Chorus]
Are You there
Or am I screaming at the dark?
I burn
I break
And You just let me fall apart
If You’re love
Then why do I feel erased?
I am not okay
This is my broken throat prayer
(hear me now)
[Verse 2]
I’ve buried my friends
Under polite little hymns
Sang of mercy
While the dirt hit the rims
Of their
Names
You say You are close
To the shattered and crushed
So why do my hands
Come back empty every time
That I
Reach up?
[Chorus]
Are You there
Or am I screaming at the dark?
I burn
I break
And You just let me fall apart
If You’re love
Then why do I feel erased?
I am not okay
This is my broken throat prayer
(are You there?)
This is my broken throat prayer
[Bridge]
[Music drops
Distant guitar swells]
If I curse Your name
Will You finally answer?
If I tear this faith
Out like a cancer?
If I say I’m done
Will You let me go?
Or were You the silence
Buried in my throat?
[Chorus]
Are You there
’cause I am screaming at the dark
I shake
I shake
Til my lungs rip wide apart
If You’re love
Then meet me in this rage
I am not okay
But I’m still here
I’m still here
This is my broken throat prayer
(this is my broken throat prayer)