Carrying my invisible weight

I get up

I show up

I play the part

Smile’s painted thick

But it cracks in the dark

Nobody sees the battle I fight

It’s a war in the morning

I lose every night

The clock keeps ticking

I keep pretending

Each day begins

But there’s no ending

Carrying an invisible weight

Walking through life in a fragile state

I’m here

I’m there

But I’m not okay

A ghost in the mirror every single night

A ghost carrying my invisible weight

I laugh

I nod

I say the right things

But inside my head

The silence screams

The world spins fast

I’m stuck in slow

Drowning in a river only I know

Would they notice if I disappeared

Or am I just a shadow that nobody fears

I’m breaking

I’m breaking

Can’t find the glue

Holding together feels like what I can’t do

Carrying an invisible weight

Walking through life in a fragile state

I’m here

I’m there

But I’m not okay

A ghost in the mirror every single night

A ghost carrying my invisible weight