Now You Sleep With Me

You thought I’d leave when I died.

But the dead don’t forget.

And the cursed don’t forgive.

You don’t sleep alone anymore.

You sleep with me.

Now you sleep with me

Even when he’s there

I’m the shadow in your sheets

I’m the fingers in your hair

I’m the cold breath on your spine

I’m the creak on the stair

You can lie to the world

But I know you’re scared

Now you sleep with me…

Forever. I swear.

I’m the voice in your head when the lights cut out

I’m the whisper in your throat when you try to shout

I’m the silence that screams in the middle of sex

I’m the guilt you swallow that clogs your chest

He don’t know — but I do

Every smile you fake, every “I miss you”

I see through your skin like glass

I live in your bones, I haunt your past

You gave me death — now I give you presence

Your punishment ain’t hell — it’s my essence

He’ll never love you clean — not with me in the room

I’ll wrap his throat in your perfume

I’ll make him dream of caskets and blood

I’ll make his heart dry up when you call it love

You thought I was gone — nah, I evolved

From broken boy… into your goddamn curse

Now you sleep with me

Even when he’s there

I’m the shadow in your sheets

I’m the fingers in your hair

I’m the cold breath on your spine

I’m the creak on the stair

You can lie to the world

But I know you’re scared

Now you sleep with me…

Forever. I swear.

He tries to touch you — but your skin feels cursed

He sees your smile — but it tastes like dirt

You wear makeup to hide what you feel

But I know what’s fake and I know what’s real

You can pray, light sage, burn your bed

You can scream at the night — but I’m in your head

I’m the part of you that won’t ever heal

I’m the mirror you break when it shows what’s real

I hope he asks why your hands shake

Why you flinch when he says my name

Why you cry in your sleep, mouth wide with fear

Why your eyes stay wet when I’m nowhere near

But I am

I always will be

Your soul’s tattoo

Your scar on repeat

You built a ghost when you tore me down

Now I walk through your dreams wearing your crown

You loved the chaos

Now you live in it

You loved the pain

Now you give it

You loved my death

Now you relive it

Now you sleep with me

Even when he’s there

I’m the shadow in your sheets

I’m the fingers in your hair

I’m the cold breath on your spine

I’m the creak on the stair

You can lie to the world

But I know you’re scared

Now you sleep with me…

Forever. I swear.

You ain’t in love…

You’re in purgatory.

And I’m the reason.