Not Living

I wake up and it feels the same

Another day without a name

Coffee burns, I don’t react

Mirror asks, I don’t answer back

Days roll by in black and white

Nothing wrong, just nothing right

If this is life, it’s losing drive

I’m not dying, I just arrive

No crash, no flame

Just a heartbeat in delay

I’m not living—

But am I even alive?

Still breathing through another night

Going nowhere one step at a time

I’m not dying—

Just stuck between the lines

If this is life, then tell me why

It feels like I already crossed that line

Voices talk, they miss my face

I stand still while the world escapes

Every win tastes worn and thin

Every loss just lets me in

I say the words they want to hear

Play it cool, disappear

If I vanished into the crowd

Would it even get too loud?

I speak in time, they hear the sound

But nothing ever sticks around

I’m not living—

But am I even alive?

Still breathing through another night

Going nowhere one step at a time

I’m not dying—

Just stuck between the lines

If this is life, then tell me why

It feels like I already crossed that line

[Bridge] (half-time, restrained swagger)

Lipstick truths and cheap goodbyes

Dead-end dreams in perfect light

I don’t bleed, I don’t bruise

Just fade out in polished shoes

Say my name—

It doesn’t move me

I’m not living—

But am I even alive?

Heart still beating, dead inside

Just enough to qualify

I’m not dying—

Just losing the fight

If this is life, then tell me why

No one hears me pass them by

Not living

Just alive