When You Remember It

[Verse 1]
Name on the tip of my tongue
Something missing from my room
Picture frames with hollow glass
Faces scraped out
Just blank mass
Keys on the table
One by one
Teeth in my mouth feel short
Feel wrong
I know I've lost more than I own
But I can't list what’s gone
[Chorus]
It only takes when you remember it
(remember it, remember it)
Another piece erased the second it clicks
You can't forget what you can't admit
You feel the pull and you’re feeding it
Every thought you track
It tears and splits
It only takes when you remember it
And I'm starting to remember it
[Verse 2]
Doorway angle slightly changed
Steps to the kitchen rearranged
Childhood house in a dead-end street
Was it red
Was it grey
Did it ever breathe?
Scars that I don’t recall
Fresh and pale on my arms
Then gone
If I write it down
The ink turns thin
Pages curl like drying skin
[Chorus]
It only takes when you remember it
(keep it out, keep it out)
Another name dissolves the second it sticks
You chase the thought
It drags you into the pit
You feel the pull and you’re feeding it
Every sharpened fact becomes its fix
It only takes when you remember it
And I’m starting to remember it
[Bridge]
I tried to pray but the words fell through
Letters fell off and the shape was you
Every gap in the wall
Every skipped heartbeat
Is a doorway bending toward your teeth
Was my mother’s voice higher
Lower?
Did my brother exist before her?
If I say them out loud
Will they fade too fast?
Did I ever have a past? (did I ever have a past?)
[Chorus]
It only takes when you remember it
(remember it, remember it)
Every solid truth turns liquid
Slips
I bite my tongue till the memory rips
You feel the pull and you’re feeding it
You can’t stay blind once the edges knit
It only takes when you remember it
God
I’m trying not to
Trying not to
But I’m starting to remember it

funk, Crushing blend of progressive and groove metal with technical death intricacy; 7-string guitars in polymetric chugs against jagged cymbal work, bass snarling in unison. Distorted male vocals shifting between guttural lows and frantic mid-screams, occasional layered gang shouts in the chorus. Riffs stay dense and palm-muted in verses, then open into wide dissonant chords and syncopated stabs in the hook, ending on a sudden drop to half-time for maximum dread., groove metal, progressive metal, technical death metal