[Verse 1]
Hurting so bad I can taste it
Pain got a name, I just face it
I been learnin' with my hands tied
Walkin' blind while my chest wide
Things in me movin' too early
Before my mind can call it, I feel it
Before the words land in my mouth right
My soul already know the whole fight
I don't get warnings, I get the bruise
I don't get answers, I get the use
Every red flag turns to a vision
Every small cut turns to a prison
[Pre-Chorus]
And it starts in the bone
Then it crawls to the throat
Heart pullin' on the thread
'Til the whole thing shows
[Chorus]
It's a curse on me
It's a curse on me
My soul knows first
Then my brain can't breathe
It's a curse on me
It's a curse on me
My heart tears seams
While I still can't see (can't see)
[Verse 2]
I feel the lie in the room shift
I feel the truth when the mood dips
No lesson book for this language
Got my hands full of this anguish
I been right too soon, too often
That kind of knowing feel rotten
Like a blade hid clean in the lining
Like a storm in my skin keep climbin'
And I hate that I know when it's comin'
Hate that I know when you're runnin'
Hate that my chest turns to signal
When your silence gets this official
[Pre-Chorus]
And it starts in the bone
Then it crawls to the throat
Heart pullin' on the thread
'Til the whole thing shows
[Chorus]
It's a curse on me
It's a curse on me
My soul knows first
Then my brain can't breathe
It's a curse on me
It's a curse on me
My heart tears seams
While I still can't see (can't see)
[Bridge]
Maybe this is how I survive it
Maybe pain taught me to find it
Every scar got a voice in the dark
Every wrong turn left a mark
So I sit with the weight in my body
Let it talk, let it call me
If I break, then I break in the open
Better truth than the hope I been smokin'
[Final Chorus]
It's a curse on me
It's a curse on me
My soul knows first
Then my brain can't breathe
It's a curse on me
It's a curse on me
My heart tears seams
While I still can't see (can't see)
It's a curse on me
It's a curse on me
I feel it first
And it lives in me (lives in me)