Hated You With Love

Oh, the nights get colder

In a heart that's grown so old

Haunted by your shadows

And the dreams we didn't hold

I hated you in silence, whispered truth

Buried deep in the back of my mind

Like a secret I kept, unrefined, unkind,

I hated your smile that left me blind

You moved on, painted life anew,

While I stood still, chasing ghosts of you

Echoes of laughter in someone else's ear,

Memories turning sour, sharp as a spear

You built your dreams with a brand new slate,

While I bled love that you wouldn't reciprocate

I hate that I love you, love that I hate,

Caught in this cycle, a tempest of fate

Craving your touch while I drown in my tears,

I hated you, my darling, for all of these years

Selfish desires dressed in gold,

Cars and pretty faces, empty, uncontrolled

But even in abundance, I felt the void,

Wanting your heart, feeling so destroyed

Every corner I turn, your memory's there,

But I reach for the stars, and you're never near

The warmth that you gave, now chills to the bone,

Hated for moving on, hated for being alone

I hate that I love you, love that I hate,

Caught in this cycle, a tempest of fate

Craving your touch while I drown in my tears,

I hated you, my darling, for all of these years

Oh, I'm swirling in darkness, clenching my heart,

Every single moment tears me apart

I should've known, should've let you be,

But here I am, drowning in memories

I hated you for not hating me too,

For the love that you gave and the pain that is true

But maybe it's time to let go of the fight,

To embrace the shadows and search for the light.