[Verse 1]
Glitter in my lashes
Rent due in my phone
Laughing in the bathroom stall
Scrollin’
Feelin’ old
VIP confessions
Breath that smells like lies
He calls me “baby
You’re a dream”
I’m watchin’ his wife’s eyes
[Pre-Chorus]
Every night feels like the last one
Champagne names that I forget
Tell myself this just a season
But the seasons keep me in debt (yeah)
[Chorus]
I got pole gold
Heart sold
Tryin’ to buy it back
High heels
Cheap thrills
Dancin’ on the cracks
Turn the pain up
Like it’s just another track
Smile wide
Dead tired
Carryin’ the act
If this is freedom
Why’s it feel like chains?
Throwin’ my twenties on my own damn shame
I got pole gold
Heart sold
Lookin’ for the door
Countin’ my tips like a lifeboat to the shore (to the shore)
[Verse 2]
Backseat change of outfits
Glitter on my keys
Mama texts me “are you safe?”
I write “yeah” and hit delete
Bouncer knows my secrets
DJ knows my song
Manager says “one more lap”
I’ve been here too long
[Pre-Chorus]
Every hug feels like a handshake
Every kiss just costs a fee
Tell myself I’m stackin’ escape plans
But the house keeps winnin’ on me (oh)
[Chorus]
I got pole gold
Heart sold
Tryin’ to buy it back
High heels
Cheap thrills
Dancin’ on the cracks
Turn the pain up
Like it’s just another track
Smile wide
Dead tired
Carryin’ the act
If this is freedom
Why’s it feel like chains?
Throwin’ my twenties on my own damn shame
I got pole gold
Heart sold
Lookin’ for the door
Countin’ my tips like a lifeboat to the shore
[Bridge]
[Beat drops to bass and claps]
Uber app open on my phone (on my phone)
College tab in another window
Flight search
One-way to “unknown”
But my stage name’s callin’ me home (home, home)
[Drums build]
Girls laugh loud in the dressing room
“I’m out next year” we all assume
We toast to exits
Neon proof
Then we go back out
Same costume (hey!)
[Chorus]
I got pole gold
Heart sold
Tryin’ to buy it back
High heels
Cheap thrills
Dancin’ on the cracks
Turn the pain up
Like it’s just another track
Smile wide
Dead tired
Carryin’ the act
If this is freedom
I will break these chains
Turn all my bruises into brand-new names
I got pole gold
Heart sold
Reachin’ for the door
Countin’ my tips like a lifeboat to the shore (to the shore)
(Yeah I’m leavin’)
Lifeboat to the shore