Every fucking morning

Every fuckin’ morning, before I blink,
Grief pours me a shot I ain’t ready to drink.
Same cold silence, same empty bed,
Same heavy thoughts that ain’t done bein’ said.

I wake up reachin’, like time hit rewind,
Like Alex still breathes, like Vegas ain’t mined.
Like maybe I dreamed it, like maybe they’re near,
But all I get’s air and a face full of fear.

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[Pre-Chorus]
His pillow still dips like it holds his side,
I roll over, wish I could catch him mid-stride.
I peek down the hall, brace for the sound,
Of little paws soft dancin’ around.

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[Chorus]
Every fuckin’ morning, they’re gone again,
Sunrise reminds me of what I can’t defend.
I smile in public, I laugh on cue,
But grief walks with me in every shoe.

I wear this pain like it’s stitched to my skin,
Strut through the world with the fire within.
I lost them hard, I loved them true,
Every fuckin’ morning, I carry them through.

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[Verse 2]
The world keeps movin’, don’t stop for my ache,
I tape on a smile that’s about to break.
Some days I dress it in lashes and lace,
But I’m drownin’ beneath that made-up face.

They die all over again with the dawn,
Every sunrise just proves they’re gone.
I hear him in echoes, feel her in wind,
Then I blink, and remember it’s pretend.

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[Pre-Chorus]
They say time heals, makes it less wild,
But I still ache like a sobbin’ child.
It hides in the chores, the bills, the routine,
Lives in the quiet, haunts the unseen.

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[Chorus]
Every fuckin’ morning, they’re gone again,
Sunrise reminds me of what I can’t defend.
I smile in public, I laugh on cue,
But grief walks with me in every shoe.

I wear this pain like it’s stitched to my skin,
Strut through the world with the fire within.
I lost them hard, I loved them true,
Every fuckin’ morning, I carry them through.

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[Bridge]
I hate that they’re memories now, not breath,
Love danced so close to the edge of death.
No calls, no barks, no midnight talk,
Just echoes, shadows, follow and stalk.

But I wake up still, ‘cause they’d want me here,
Movin’ through life, fightin’ the fear.
I let grief come, I let it stay,
‘Cause love this deep don’t fade away.

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[Break / Soft Drop]
Tears behind smiles, whispers in air,
I talk to spirits, I know they’re there.
She walks beside me every damn mile,
Grief in my bones, grief in my style.

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[Final Chorus]
Every fuckin’ morning, they’re gone again,
But I rise with the sun, through the ache and pain.
I wear this love stitched into my soul,
Every fuckin’ morning, I carry them whole.

I lost them hard, I loved them true,
Every fuckin’ morning, I carry them through.
And though grief runs my world, it won’t define me—
I strut with their fire, and the world will see.

Female Soulful R&B Ballad with Smooth Vocals and Soft Beats