Letting Go of the Only Thing I Know

[Verse 1]
Honesty hurts
More than these old habits
I sleep in my fears
Like a second skin
Every good thing
Feels like it’s a trick
Like the floor
Is gonna cave again
I see open hands
And I flinch like fire
Every gentle word
Rings sharp as a wire
How do I breathe
When calm feels like a lie?
How do I rest
When I’m wired to survive?
[Chorus]
How do you let go
Of the only thing you know?
When the panic feels
Like home
And the quiet feels
All wrong
How do you accept
A love you’ve never known?
When your body screams
“don’t trust”
But your heart says
“this is hope”
Jesus is peace
But this path takes work
I’m learning to believe
That I’m worth
His hurt
[Verse 2]
Every soft sunrise
Puts a weight on my chest
Joy in small things
Feels like some kind of test
I wait for the crack
In every kind face
Like any second now
They’ll take it all away
I keep one hand
On the exit door
Counting all the ways
I’ve been here before
But there’s a quiet voice
Cutting through the noise
Saying
“Child
You’re allowed
To choose a different choice”
[Chorus]
How do you let go
Of the only thing you know?
When the panic feels
Like home
And the quiet feels
All wrong
How do you accept
A love you’ve never known?
When your body screams
“don’t trust”
But your heart says
“this is hope”
Jesus is peace
But His path takes work
I’m learning to believe
That I’m more
Than the hurt
[Bridge]
[Music falls to soft guitar
Vocal close and raw]
Hands shaking
As I open mine
(Here I am, here I am)
Every breath
A little act of faith
When the fear says run
I stay
I don’t feel fixed
But I feel held
One small step
Away from hell
I say His name
Through my teeth
Through my doubt
“If You’re here
Then show me how”
[Chorus]
How do you let go
Of the only thing you know?
I’m loosening my grip
I’m letting You hold
When my body screams
That safety’s wrong
I’ll walk this road
One trembling song
Jesus is peace
And this path takes work
But I’ll keep walking
Through the dirt
Through the dark
Till Your mercy feels
Like home in my heart
Till Your mercy feels
Like home in my heart

rock, Female vocals over alt-pop rock: palm-muted electric guitar and warm bass in the verse, big open chords and splashy drums in the chorus. Tension builds with toms and ambient pads before each hook; choruses hit with stacked harmonies and a soaring top line. Bridge strips to vocal and reverb-drenched guitar, then explodes back in with crash-heavy final refrain., pop