[Verse 1]
Ash in the sink
Empty bottles on the nightstand
Blue ghosts in a plastic bag
Calling my name again
Needle marks like railroad tracks
Running up these haunted arms
Every promise that I ever made
Derails in the dark
[Pre-Chorus]
I keep swearing this is the last one
Mouth dry
Hands shake
Teeth grind
I see my face in the cracked screen
Don't even recognize my own eyes
[Chorus]
I'm crawling out of this grave I dug
One slow breath at a time
I’ve been drowning in my own blood
Reaching for a lifeline
If I tear these poisons from my veins tonight
Will I still be me on the other side?
I'm crawling out of this grave I dug
Or I die inside
[Verse 2]
Missed calls from my mother
Her voice stuck in my head
"Baby
You don't sound right"
I hung up instead
Friends turned into strangers
I turned into a ghost
Chasing that first numb moment
Losing everything I loved most
[Pre-Chorus]
I keep swearing this is the last time
But the last time never comes
So I'm shaking while I dial the number
Saying
"I can't do this alone"
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
White walls
Cold chair
Fluorescent hum
Stale air
Doctor asks
"When did it start?"
I say
"When I stopped having a heart"
[harsh vocals]
Rip the ritual from my routine
Cut the cord to the chemical dream
Let the cravings claw
Let ’em scream
I am not what they made of me
[crescendo]
Hands on my shoulders
"You’re not done
Every day is day one"
I’m not clean
I’m not cured
But I’m here
And I’m heard
[Chorus]
[Outro]
One slow breath
One small step
I open the blinds
Let the light hit my wrecked chest