[Intro – low, raspy spoken over faint guitar hum and slow kick]
(Do me... yeah...)
It's too much... I admit it...
Ashamed I ever chose this...
[Verse 1 – slow, deliberate rap flow, building emotion]
It's too much, I admit, I'm ashamed I chose this place
Lessons learned the hard way, no grace in this space
People out here ugly, always huntin' for the next thing
To consume and destroy, it just puzzles me, damn
Greed runnin' deep, shame on every face
Refusal to change, helpin' one another? That's erased
Unheard of in this world, straight-up lame
We watch each other drown, nobody throws the chain
[Pre-Chorus – guitars swell slightly, half-sung]
I see it clear now, the rot in the core
Chose wrong, paid the price, can't take no more
Heart heavy with the weight of what I let in
Time to face the mirror, let the real shit begin
[Chorus – melodic, gritty sung-rap with layered ad-libs, open chords ringing]
I'm ashamed of this place, yeah, I chose it wrong
Lessons hit brutal, no grace in the song
People ugly inside, steady findin' ways
To take and to break, lost in the haze
Greed and the shame, no will to rearrange
Help one another? Man, that's out of range
It's lame, it's fucked, it's all the same
Ashamed I stayed... ashamed I stayed...
[Verse 2 – flow intensifies a bit, more raw delivery]
They chase the high of havin' more than the rest
Step on necks for a dollar, put souls to the test
No hand extended when someone's down low
Just laughs in the shadows, watch the pain grow
I was part of it once, blinded by the game
Now the mirror shows truth, and it's callin' my name
Puzzles me daily why we built it this way
Consume till it's gone, then wonder why we decay
[Pre-Chorus 2 – heavier distortion, tension rising]
No more excuses, no more pretend
The cycle's vicious, but it finally ends
I learned from the burn, from the hurt and the fall
Won't choose this again, won't answer the call
[Chorus – repeat, add faint harmonies or echoes on “ashamed”]
I'm ashamed of this place, yeah, I chose it wrong
Lessons hit brutal, no grace in the song
People ugly inside, steady findin' ways
To take and to break, lost in the haze
Greed and the shame, no will to rearrange
Help one another? Man, that's out of range
It's lame, it's fucked, it's all the same
Ashamed I stay
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