Delusion of Lies

[Verse 1]
All you do is apologize
But you never even ask why
Same speech, same sad eyes
Then you turn around and twist my mind
You never ask me for forgiveness
You just pray that I forget this
Patch it over with a cheap smile
Then you’re screaming in a short while
You say it’s “just how you were raised”
Like that’s supposed to make it OK
I was a kid in that crossfire
Learning rage from a liar
[Chorus]
You build a delusion of lies
Paint halos over your crimes
You’re my parents, you should love me
Not break me every time that you’re lonely
You take your anger out on us
Then tell me that it’s “tough love”
That ain’t love, that’s just disguise
That’s just a delusion of lies
[Verse 2]
You slam doors, I count to ten
You say ”grown-ups fight now and then”
But grown-ups don’t throw their kids
Like words they regret and forget they said
You call it “normal,” I call it fear
I still flinch when you walk near
You say “sorry” like it costs air
Then load the blame on my small shoulders there
I had birthdays you slept through
Then blamed bills for what you didn’t do
You swear you’d die for me in a breath
But you’re killing parts of me with every threat
[Chorus]
You build a delusion of lies
Paint halos over your crimes
You’re my parents, you should love me
Not break me every time that you’re lonely
You take your anger out on us
Then tell me that it’s “tough love”
That ain’t love, that’s just disguise
That’s just a delusion of lies
[Bridge]
I’m not your mirror, I’m not your bruise
I’m not the weight you make me choose
I’m done carrying what ain’t mine
I’m cutting through your tangled lines (yeah)
[Chorus]
You build a delusion of lies
Paint halos over your crimes
You’re my parents, you should love me
Not break me every time that you’re lonely
You take your anger out on us
Then tell me that it’s “tough love”
I see through your practiced lines
I’m done with your delusion of lies

rap, Dark, intimate rap over sparse piano and deep sub bass; verses in a close, confessional pocket, hooks open up with layered, slightly distorted doubles and distant child-choir hums; drums swing with sharp snares and rattling hats, bridge strips back to just vocal and low drone before final chorus crashes in